Hi baby,
Youve been gone just 4 days but it seems like a life time already, I’m told time flies for you guys over there, I hope thats true, I hate to think of you so far away missing your family, missing home, the very thought of it makes me cry.
I went to bed at 10.30 last night, just so it would bring me one day closer to seeing you faster, I cried into my pillow for an hour, didnt feel any happier when I woke up this morning, cause the second my eyes are open all i can see is your face. I miss you so much Kyle, but this time away from you has given me time to think deeply about what we have been through already since we met.

Before you left for Kenya you said you would text me when you got back, i didn’t believe you, carried on living life thinking you were just another guy telling me what i wanted to hear, but then on the 21st of April 2009 you text me, I was shocked and suprised that you had kept my number and even more suprised when you asked me to be yours.

We have had a few break ups, with you sulking, going weeks without talking to me lol and me thinking you dont really love me, but my heart has always belonged to you and I now know you love me.

Reading through all our past convos yesterday it was so clear that we love eachother and I will wait for eternity for you if I have to, you are not just a tattoo on my wrist, your tattooed on my heart and i just want you home safe so I can hold you.

Before you left we joked about how I wont be able to go 3 months without intimacy and i said you would cop off with some yanky soldier over there and you said i would find another guy to take your place. I need you to know Kyle, I miss our convos so much more than i could miss an intimate moment with any one else. while your so far from me and unable to communicate all i yearn for is to hear your voice or see your name pop up on msn, knowing you were online always gave made me smile, even when we didnt talk. I loved it most when you were at home for the weekend and you could talk to me more, or when you were out training and you would text me when you werent really allowed to. And how funny it was when you Trooped the Colour with a black eye from the fight you had the night before. What must the Queen have thought when she walked past you lol.

Sorry Im going on abit now, you would be laughing at me if you were here, telling me im weird but hey… thats just me, and I love you and babe, im so glad you eventually made me realise that you love me to.

I guess i best sign out now, and try to be more positive about the situation, i cant do any more then i am doing, ive got my support wrist bands from the Grenadier support group and SOS support group and passed those bands to friends, left a message on the support website that you all come home safe and your name is on my wrist, nothing more to do but sit and wait and send love in the hope that you feel my love with you.

Stay safe Kyle,  love you baby. xxx

Always yours

Kerry xx